a person  wrote to me:
> anything I missed? i just took a glance at ur bulk notes and I feel enough! so tell me if I missed a piece of u.

so, i replied with:
> if i’m not wrong the bulk notes that u talked about is my profile. haha, is it too long? what i wrote there is a tip of an iceberg of what made me.. well.. me.

i’m tempted to made my profile private many times but since i myself hate to look at someone profile just to find it a private one, i didnt’do it.

if you’re asking why i don’t made a short simple profile, i guess it is easier to states the truth than made up some crappy one sentence profile.

OMG!! I cant believe it!! Someone pick up my prompt and write a story for me!! Someone WRITE.A.STORY, a 22.000++ words of story @o@. Amazing! I definitely gonna enjoy every minutes of reading it. Thankyou so so much mystery author, I will treasure this gift \(^_^)/

1. Buat shortcut baru pada desktop (klik kanan pada desktop, pilih New lalu klik Shortcut).
2. Ketik atau CopyPaste: %windir%\System32\rundll32.exe powrprof.dll,SetSuspendState
3. Tekan Next. Lalu beri nama shortcut. Default namanya rundll32, tapi lebih praktis jika diganti menjadi Stand By. Tekan Finish.
4. Jika merasa iconnya kurang menarik, ganti iconnya (Klik kanan pada icon, klik propeties. Klik Change Icon. Ketik atau CopyPaste: C:\WINDOWS\system32\shell32.dll untuk icon standart pada Windows atau klik Browse… kalau kamu punya file-file icon (filetype:.ico)).
5. Setelah itu icon bisa didrag-and-drop di Start Menu atau di Quick Launch (enable-kan fungsi drag and drop pada Start Menu terlebih dulu).

  Fitur Stand By sering kugunakan pada laptopku. Umumnya fitur ini bisa diaktifkan menggunakan Task Manager (ketik taskmgr.exe pada command editor/run atau tekan ctrl+alt+del pada desktop, klik tab Shut Down dan pilih Stand By, pada laptop cukup tutup lid-nya) atau secara otomatis dapat diatur di Display Properties (klik kanan pada desktop, klik Properties, klik tab Screen Saver dan klik tombol Power…, di situ kita bisa mengkonfigurasi Power Option Properties sesuai kebutuhan).

Masalah muncul ketika aku berpindah OS dari Windows XP Tablet PC ke Windows XP, dan memformat hard disk laptopku dari FAT32 menjadi NTFS. Rampung instalasi OS, fitur Stand By ini tidak bisa diaktifkan dengan cara menutup lid laptop. Parahnya lagi, option System Stand By menghilang dari Power Option Properties.

Dengan mengira-ngira saja, kupikir masalah ini timbul karena aku belum menginstall VGA Driver untuk laptopku. Masalah terselesaikan. Iseng saja kupikir, asyik juga ya kalau aku bisa mengaktifkan Stand By dengan hanya menekan satu tombol. Setelah googling kutemukan cara praktis diatas =)

P.S.: Untuk meningkatkan performance aku sengaja tidak menginstall driver-driver tablet PC. Tentu saja ini berarti aku menghilangkan hampir semua fitur konektifitas dan fitur khusus tablet PC. Aku akhirnya hanya menginstall driver VGA untuk alasan diatas.

Heheh.. udah lama gak posting pake bahasa Ibu (baca:bahasa
Indonesia). Kali ini postinganku betul-betul penting, jadi aku mau semua temenku
mengerti. Klo mau temen2 boleh langsung baca
tulisan yg berwarna MERAH.

Temen2 smua tau kan belakangan ini semua pada ribut soal
Global Warming. Jujur awalnya aku sendiri gak terlalu ambil pusing, pikirku "Ah,
itukan urusannya pemerintah sama para ahli. Ak yg cm pelajar gini paling cuma
bisa nyumbang simpati doang." Ternyata pemikiranku itu salah besar, pren!

Kampanye "Switch your habit!" (dan kampanye lingkungan lainnya) yg sangat sering

banget nongol di MTv dan terutama satu episod Oprah ini >> "
Going
Green 101: What Your Family Can Do Today!"
betul-betul menohok ak. Di acara Oprah itu ditunjukkan bagaimana usaha keluarga2
di Amrik untuk mulai "Living Green". Dari pengalaman mereka dan jg dari
pengalaman para aktivis lingkungan, jelas keliatan klo usaha mereka itu butuh
waktu, uang, tenaga plus hati. Hati?

Iya, hati! Mreka sadar dan ngerti klo usaha mreka yg sbegitunya itu cuma brarti
setitik buat ‘membenahi’ kerusakan lingkungan di Bumi kita. Tapi mreka gak
gentar dan tetep ngelakuin dengan semangat, disiplin dan dedikasi yg patut
ditiru (keliatan bgt dari sikap dan ekspresi mereka). Mreka tetep percaya klo
yang setitik itu diterapkan setiap kluarga di Amrik (ini krn acaranya fokus di
A.S) pasti bakal membuat perubahan yg berarti.

Aku, saat itu bener2 malu, pren! Karena ak dengan piciknya berpikir, "Apalah
artinya usaha satu orang biasa.", terus STOP!! Aku bner2 berhenti di pemikiran
itu dan ga ngelakuin apa2!! Mungkin krn aku merasa tersindir, saran2 dan tips2
mereka dari acara itu keinget terus dan mulai kupraktekkan sedikit demi sedikit.

Dari posting yg panjang ini, yang PALING PENTING adl daftar "Ayo Hidup Hijau",
yg bisa temen2 lihat di bawah ini. Daftar ini kususun dari tips2 di acara Oprah
itu ditambah sedikit pengalaman pribadiku. Selain itu bakal kutandai juga mana
yg sudah kulakukan dan belum kulakukan. Klo ada tmen2 yg mau menambahkan daftar
ini wah, sangat2 boleh, tuh!

INTI HIDUP HIJAU:
1. REUSE!
Pilih barang2 yg bisa dipake berulang2 en tahan
lama. Daripada beli baru, manfaatkan yg udah kamu punya, modifikasi, dan gunakan.
2. RECYCLE!

Pake barang2 yg bisa didaur ulang. Perhatiin tanda
daur ulang (biasanya) di dasar produk (terutama untuk plastik, krn susah didaur
ulang), simbolnya adl tiga panah membentuk segitiga. Pisahkan sampah yg bisa
didaur ulang dgn yg ga bisa (setauku pemerintah blum mendukung cara ini, huh!).

 3. REDUCE!
Hindari pemborosan energi! Hindari/kurangi
pemakaian barang2 yg mengandung polutan (penyebab polusi). Hindari/kurangi
pemakaian barang2 yg ga bisa didaur ulang. Jangan boros klo make produk2 yg
berasal dari alam (termasuk air, lo!)

AYO HIDUP HIJAU!!
1. GANTI KANTONG PLASTIK/KERTAS DENGAN KANTONG BERBAHAN RAMAH 
LINGKUNGAN DAN REUSABLE (KAIN, SERAT, CANVAS, KATUN). =)
=) >> Hmm langkah ini cukup berhasil. Belakangan aku malah kewalahan, ak kehabisan kantongplastik untuk tempat sampah. sekarang aku kadang btetap belanja dengan kantong plastok biasa untuk disimpan.  

INFO >>Tmen2 bisa
pake kantong/tas lain (yg udah km punya ato yg praktis ato yg murah), tas ini lalu bisa dicuci dan dipake lg waktu blanja berikutnya. Bahkan ada supermaket yang menyediakan kantong plastik yang dapat didaur ulangsecara gratis.Klo temen2 ada saran kantong lainnya,
boleh berbagi info!

2. DARIPADA BELI MINUMAN DLM BOTOL PLASTIK, BAWA TEMPAT MINUM SENDIRI. =)

=) >> Knapa? Untuk membuat 1 liter minuman botol, diperlukan 6 liter air. 5 liternya? Untuk mendinginkan kemasan plastik itu!

3. PAKE SMART POWER STRIPS. ITULOH, COLOKAN LISTRIK    YG ADA TOMBOL
ON/OFFNYA. =)
=) >> Cuma mencet tombol off,
ternyata kurang ampuh, pren! Cabut kabel listrik yg ga dipake. Ato pencet
tomboll off di power strips.
INFO >> Ada di toko2 elektronik/supermaket2. Harga 20rb ++. (Ak beli yg dibawah
20rb tp cpet rusak, jgn dicontoh).

4. PAKE ALAT MAKAN BERBAHAN RAMAH LINGKUNGAN (KACA, KERAMIK, LOGAM). =)
=) >> Ak batal beli gelas
plastik, hehe. Ak pake bahan gelas dan keramik (pinjem pak kos).
5. DARIPADA NGIRIM KARTU UCAPAN/SURAT LEBIH BAIK KIRIM E-CARD/EMAIL/SMS. =)
=) >> Mengurangi kertas=mengurangi
pohon yg ditebang utk mbuat kertas.
6. SOAL KEMASAN LESS IS MORE. ARTINYA PILIH KEMASAN YG MINIMALIS (WAKTU BELI
PRODUK, WAKTU KITA MENGEMAS/MEMBUNGKUS BARANG/KADO) . =)
=) >> Mengurangi kertas=mengurangi pohon yg ditebang utk mbuat kertas.
7. SUKA BACA BUKU/KOMIK/NOVEL? MANFAATKAN E-BOOK DAN BUKU/KOMIK/NOVEL ONLINE.
SUKA NULIS? MANFAATIN BLOG DAN FILE EDITOR/OFFICE DIBANDINGKAN DIARY/BUKU. =)
=) >> Mengurangi kertas=mengurangi
pohon yg ditebang utk mbuat kertas.
8. HINDARI PRODUK AEROSOL SEMPROT (hairspray, krim kocok, pembasmi nyamuk).KALOPUN PAKE, PASTIKAN ISINYA KOSONG SEBELUM DIBUANG! =)
=) >> Ak cm pake pembasmi nyamuk, stelah betul2 habis baru kubuang.
9. HINDARI BUNGKUSAN MAKANAN/MINUMAN BERBAHAN STYROFOAM DAN PLASTIK.
=) >> Klo
beli makan di depan rumah aku pilih bawa wadah makan/minum sendiri.
10. GANTI TISU DENGAN LAP KAIN ATO SAPUTANGAN. =)
=) >> Di kosku ga ada tisu dan
aku ga pernah bawa2 tisu.
11. PAKE 1 GELAS MINUM DALAM 1 HARI, (BELI GELAS YG ADA TUTUPNYA/ PAKE TUTUP
GELAS YG ADA). CUCI GELAS DI PAGI HARI. =)
=) >> Klo bisa pake 1 gelas
aja, habis dicuci pake lagi. Lebih sip klo pake
glas kramik/kaca, coba cari glas yg lucu/spesial biar semangat. Klo bisa pake 1 gelas saja dalam 1 hari, manfaatkan tutup gelas.
12. PAKE 1 PIRING MAKAN AJA. STELAH DIPAKE CUCI, DAN PAKE LAGI. =)
=) >> Klo bisa pake 1 piring
aja (sampe piringnya pecah hehehe). Lebih sip klo pake piring kramik/kaca, coba
cari piring yg lucu/spesial biar semangat.
13. DARIPADA BELI BARANG BARU, BELI REFILL (ISI ULANG)-NYA AJA. . =)
=) >> Misal yg bisa diisi
ulang: bolpen, pinsil (pilih yg mekanik), hampir semua produk pembersih rumah,
hampir semua produk kecantikan, batere (ini ak belum).
14. SISIHKAN SAMPAH2 YG BISA DIDAUR ULANG SECARA
TERPISAH (DARI YG G BS DIDAUR ULANG) TRUS JUAL/BERIKAN KE TUKANG ROMBENG/PEMULUNG.
=]
=] >> Baru mulai kulakukan. Sebelumnya cuci
dulu sampah wadah/bungkus minuman/makanan yg bisa didaur ulang. Sampah2 ini
sisihkan dalam keadaan kering, klo bisa pisahkan berdasarkan bahan (kaca, logam/kaleng,
kertas, plastik).
INFO >> Daftar barang yg bisa didaur ulang dan yg tidak ada dibawah. <MORE INFO>
15. PILIH KOSMETIK YG TDK MENGANDUNG MERKURI, TIDAK BERBAU DAN TIDAK DITESKAN
PADA BINATANG. =)
=) >> Cara tes merkuri di
Bulletin Board.
16. KLO BLI PRODUK2 KIMIA (PRODUK KESEHATAN, KOSMETIK, PEMBERSIH RUMAH, PEMBASMI
HAMA RUMAH), PERHATIKAN INGREDIENTS-NYA DAN PILIH YG PALING ALAMI/NON-TOXIC. =)
=) >> Mo beli pembasmi
serangga aja jadi lama, krn baca ingredientsnya dulu. Klo km g ngerti mana yg
alami/non-toxic, catet paling gak active ingredients-nya trus googling. Ato cara gampangnya, igrendients yang lebih sedikit kadang menunjukkan lebih sedikit juga bahan kimia yang terkandung.
17. PILIH FOTOKOPI BOLAK-BALIK DARIPADA YG BIASA. =(
=( >> Sekarang ak jarang fotokopi,
kucoba cara ini klo ak fotokopi. Mengurangi kertas=mengurangi pohon yg ditebang
utk mbuat kertas.
18. RAJIN2 SERVISIN KENDARAANMU YA. KENDARAAN TAK TERAWAT MENGHASILKAN EMISI
LEBIH BANYAK, POLUSI UDARA, PREN! TRUS MATIKAN MESIN KLO SEDANG BERHENTI, WALO BERHENTINYA BENTAR. =(
=( >> Belum kulakukan. Ga punya kendaraan pribade, heheh.
INFO LEBIH LANJUT >>
www.enginesoff.org

19. DARIPADA PAKE WADAH KECIL2 TAPI BANYAK, LEBIH BAIK PAKE WADAH YG BESAR. =(
=( >> Belum kulakukan. Krn ak tinggal sendiri, ya
gak perlu wadah besar.
20. GANTI LAMPU YG ADA DGN LAMPU HEMAT LISTRIK =]
=] >> Di rumah sudah pake bola lampu hemat energi,
tapi di kos belum.
INFO >> Bisa didapetin di supermaket2 BESAR/toko2
elektronik/toko2 lampu, harganya macem2.

21. PILIH SAYUR ORGANIK/HIDROPONIK, BIAR GA ADA PESTISIDANYA. =(
=( >> Belum kulakukan. Ak biasanya beli makanan
jadi, so ga bisa pilih2. Tapi temen kosku yg suka masak mulai ngelakuin ini. Selain g da pestisida, tanaman organik jg memakai lbh sedikit energi.

INFO >> Bisa didapetin di supermaket2, harganya lebih mahal.
22. PILIH MAKANAN ORGANIK (BERAS, CEMILAN, ETC). =]

=] >> Kadang2 aja kulakukan. Harganya mahal (klo
berasnya sih cm mahal dikit, tp ak g pernah masak nasi).
INFO >> Bisa didapetin di supermaket2 BESAR, harganya lebih mahal.
23. PAKE PRODUK2 PEMBERSIH (SABUN CUCI, OBAT PEL, SABUN CUCI PIRING, SABUN MANDI
PASTA GIGI, ETC) NON-TOXIC, BIODEGRADABLE, ALAMI, TIDAK DITESKAN PADA BINATANG,
TIDAK-BERWARNA DAN NON-PERFUMED (TANPA-PEWANGI). =(
=( >>Belum kulakukan. Susah nyari yg kayak gini,
harganya kayaknya mahal.
INFO >> Mungkin bisa didapetin di supermaket2 BESAR, harganya lebih mahal.
24. BIJI TANEMAN (SAYUR DAN BUAH) LEBIH BAIK DIBUANG KE TANAH. NEGARA KITA SUBUR,
SIAPA TAU TUMBUH. =)
=) >> Biasanya kulempar ke
halaman belakang rumah hihihi.

25. YOK TANEM POHON! KLO BISA SATU RUMAH PUNYA SATU
POHON. KLO POHON KEGEDEAN TANEMAN2 LAIN JG BOLEH. KLO BISA RUMAHMU PUNYA TAMAN/KEBUN
KECIL2AN. =)
=) >> Klo ini yg ngelakuin
mama dan papa, di rumah.
26. MATIKAN KERAN AIR SEBELUM AIR LUBER. =)
=) >> Walo kadang telat.. oops.
27. PAKE KULKAS/LEMARI PENDINGIN DAN AC YG NON CFC.
=)
=) >> Perhatikan tanda NON-CFC
di produk2 semacam ini.

DAFTAR BARANG BISA DIDAUR ULANG:
1. Kertas semua warna (kertas tanpa warna lebih mudah didaur ulang).
2. Aluminum
3. Kaca
4. Plastik
5. Kardus
6. Koran dan Majalah
7. Kaleng

DAFTAR BARANG TIDAK BISA DIDAUR ULANG:
1. Makanan
2. Styrofoam
3. Barang2 multi-material items misal: pena, disket, etc.

Di bawah ini ada fakta2 di INDONESIA, sekedar
motivasi buat teman2:
1. Sebuah pabrik pengolahan kayu terpaksa menghentikan produksinya karena
kehabisan bahan baku! There’s no more trees.
2. Pemerintah berencana membangut Pembangkit Tenaga NUKLIR untuk menambah supply
energi. Inget lumpur Lapindo? Bayangin klo kesalahan teknis semacam itu terjadi
di PLTNuklir ini… hiiiyy!
3. PBB ngadain
Climate Change Conference 2007 di Nusa Dua, Bali (3-14 Dec). Di acara
itu ada penduduk suatu pulau (lupa namanya, susah sih) yg minta tolong PBB untuk
mengevakuai penduduk pulau itu. Sebabnya? Pulau itu udah mulai tenggelam krn air
laut naik. Dan sekarang mereka kesulitan mencari lahan untuk ditanami bahan
pangan. Moga2 pulau2 di Indonesia ga mengalami nasib yg sama!

Mule dari yg kecil, dan mule dari skarang!!

"We’re in this together. Together meaning not alone. Yes, I hurt when you hurt. But I’d rather hurt with you than know either one of us is hurting apart. Do you understand? This is the best I know how to help ease your pain. You have to let me do this for you — and for me — even if you think you can handle it on your own. I need you. And I need you to need me back."

Lunar eclipse is happening today, August 28th, 2007!!! What more special about it is, it’s Blood Moon Eclipse!!!

Go watch it on streaming here:http://www.discoverychannelasia.com/eclipse/careful though, coz the file size is quite big (I think so!)

Here I give you some explanation about Blood Moon Eclipse

"….

The Sun’s light includes all the colors of the spectrum, but only red light can penetrate through the gas and dust in the Earth’s atmosphere to reach the Moon. If the atmosphere is relatively clean and only a small amount of dust is present, then more than just the red end of the spectrum can filter through, making the Moon’s dark surface appear washed in a feeble grey or yellow hue. Even more dust gives it a tobacco colour. The colour range runs right through to blood red, when a large amount of dust is mixed in with the natural gases of the Earth’s atmosphere.

…."

For more information goes here http://www.discoverychannelasia.com/space/eclipse/blood_moon/index.shtml

I wanna talk much much more but I’m seriously knackered right now (have a mild fever and a monstrously killer headache!!!!). Y’know what, I actually type dsc.discovery.com   (don’t click it!!! It’s a typing error!!) instead of discoverychannelasia.com, I’m so gonna sleep after this.

For Naj, I’m sorry I haven’t looking (Googling) for the assignment. I’ll do it tomorrow and I’ll send the link via YM okay?

For Tice, where the h3ll are you?? I have sent our project template to your email (yahoo mail) and I’m waiting here on YM (or via text message) for your confirmation. By the way her sister is having a new baby today, congrats to your sister Tice! But please check your email A.S.A.P, and if you have any objection tell me quickly. Coz i’m planning to working on it tomorrow.

Oh, and I meet an old colleague from high school on YM. What a h3ll of a very weird coincident (I feel like I’m entering a Twilight Zone or what). Hmm.. he is surprisingly can be a good friend (and have a vast knowledge and experience about nature and medical stuff, but he wont speak up much. Maybe he is in a bad mood?). Hello old colleague! Let’s be friend! Oh, and I’m sorry for all the typing error and forgetting names and places, you should read my blog and testimonials, frenz, I’m just odd like that.

Don’t forget the chatting tips! Instead of prying about personal things, just enjoy the conversation and get a new knowledge from it. That’s what I enjoy most about chatting with a stranger (I even have a separate account for it, although i vary rarely use it), it usually broaden my view of things. (I once have a chat friend who work for ADOBE and he gave me tips about job interview and job opportunity, it’s just one of the example.)

Okay I’ll sleep now, hopefully this sickness will go away tomorrow and don’t be surprised if I’m rambling on and on about MOON tomorrow! (I’m planning to do that in this blog today but Friendster is being a petulant child and denied me the access until now.)

Happy Healthy Sleep For Me!

OMG! Anyone have seen 50 Cent newest video?? (Ayo
Technology). God, that’s.. that’s practically a p0rn-video-teaser in 5
minutes! I think Mr. J.T was enjoying making-that-video (read:
making-out-with-that-red-haired-girl) too much. What will Ms. Sexyback says huh?

Unfortunately (or fortunately) the song is rather cool so I don’t have the heart
to hate it. So for the fainthearted go listen to Ayo
Technology in the radio or streaming.

And if you pay attention, 50 Cent didn’t touch those girls at all (as much as I
remember). Apparently he is faithful enough to Ms. Ciara. Wow talking bout iron
will here.

Another recent video that catch my attention is Ciara’s
Can’t Leave Him Alone, coincidently (or not) 50 Cent is featured in that video.
Don’t know why but I think this video is beautiful, especially the scene between
Ciara and 50 Cent at the last seconds. I know it’s giving an illusion of nud1ty
but for me it looks romantic (or maybe I’m just a sentimental fool).

Either way both songs are good and I definitely gonna
add them to this month play list.

Oh, and talking about the-red-haired-girl (Is it even
her real hair? It looks like a wig …) hmm, … is it normal to have your ribs
showing like that? Coz way back I have done a quite strict diet and it make a
wee bit terrifying change in the body (ribs start showing and my b**bs getting
smaller) so I stop doing it. I guess next time I decide to do it (again) I’ll
ask a doctor first but … I hate doctors and hospitals … so maybe I’ll just start
doing my exercises again (all those Pilates, kick-boxing, yoga and
whatnot). And swimming, love it.

‘Kay, so, cross your fingers for me and hopefully I can
win the battle against my laziness (or my tiredness, whatever).

Oh, and bout my coffee addict, I think it’s getting
worse. Starting from this morning I drink cafe latte with extra shot
(usually just cafe latte is enough). At this rate I will drink my coffee
black a year or two from now. At least I don’t have to drink three cups (unlike
someone that I know) every morning.

One more rambling, yesterday I have dinner with a
friend at a Korean restaurant. I think this is my first time eating Korean food
other than those famous-super-hot-soup-that-I-forgot-its-name. In my opinion
Korean food is quite tasty..  it’s hot and I think it’s better if you eat
it with some friends (at least 4) coz the portion is big. Too much for two people.

I recently watch E! Channel’s True Hollywood Story
(don’t preach me, I have too much free time, okay), it’s about Michael J. Fox
and his journey from a nice, humble, infamous boy to a golden globe and Emmy
winner actor and later about his struggling against Parkinson’s (pardon the
miss-spelling here).

Instead of keeping his medical condition a secret, he is brave enough to
announce his illness to the media (I think he did a press conference?), even
more, he established a foundation called Michael J Fox (duh!) Foundation which
purpose is to find a better way to deal with Parkinson disease and hopefully to
find a cure for it (he personally wants to find the cure before he dies). What
astound me is he’s brave enough to go to the White House and giving a speech in
front of the congress (about Parkinson’s) without taking his medicine so that
the congress could see the true effect of this disease to a man (from what I
see, I think it makes you lose control of your nerves, coz Michael’s hands and
head is kind of moving around, and twitching about at random times). That is -in
my opinion- is one of the most courageous things a man can do.

When misfortune befalls,
Some people too weak and cowardice to do anything except brooding and sulking
and whining,
Some people have so much rage within to curse their God, their loved persons,
and their pet and lash out to the rest of the world,
But a few people brave enough, strong enough to change the world for a better
place, however small the change is,
And for that I give my respect to you Michael -and other Michaels in the world-!

It makes me remember an old saying that God never give what you can’t take, and
maybe this is the highest achievement of misfortune, one of the reasons why God
create disease and natural disaster, and all those cruel things, coz there are
those few who can take it and change it into something much, much better. But,
O, woe is I to try to reasons with the way of the God, right?

I just hope that when the shit hit the fan, I have enough courage and strength
in me to make a change for the better.

P.S.: For more information visit www.michaeljfox.org/

not much i can say here… got lots of homework from uni (can i still call it a homework in uni? whatever, m’not a native speaker, so bear with me). 

seems i need a stronger coffee after all (caffeine, gimme caffeine). GOD, all that hours spent in front of my PC workin on my homework and i cant even wake enough to attend the class!! talk about wastin precious-6-hours-sleep, geez!

maybe its karma? some sort of punishment coz i use reverese engineering (bad girl!) for my homework? ………. nah!

and then, me frenz callin sayz there’s a new homework that we haf-ta submit tomorrow! these new homework is all bout database which im not very good at. (are you an oracle or sql whiz? lend me your brain pleeze?)  aarrgghh!

coz i meet a dead-end  AND a dead-line (optimist much?), i decided to go through me blog n me frenz FS , where i stumblin over a bunch of FS Groups and found about vegetarian n vegan groups.

in one of those i found articles bout my vegetarianism like this:
….
"Ovo-Lacto Vegetarian: same as VEGAN (see right), but also eats eggs and milk products. This is the most ‘popular’ form of Vegetarianism in many Western countries.."
….
and i got this pic too bout "healthy eating pyramid" for it, its a quite cute pic (dunno how to post it here).

actually i wanna join one of those groups but it seems that they all very pro of vegan, me thinks they’ll eat me alive if i say that im only an lacto-ovo vegetarian (see the irony here?).

yeah, i know its a boring stuff n all that but let’s just call it a day and wrap it up, kay? say goodnight n sweet dreams to myself!

rambling o’ da day:

at some point in your life you might have ask a question; "why do you love me?"

until recently i thought that the answer to that question have some sort of standard. in which it can be said satisfying if the answer fulfilled that standard or at least equal to your own answer of the same question ("why do i love you?").

and you might even keep asking and searching until you find the right answer. and every time, you wondering why the answer seems to be never quite right. and when finally you find it, it still doesn’t do any good for you.

but then, after i read some short prose, i sort of had this epiphany that maybe it’s not that hard after all, that maybe all this time you look for the wrong kind of right.

i think, instead of looking for the answer that fulfilled your standard you should look for the answer that you can be fulfill. and there’s a possibility that the answer is quite far from your own answer to that question.

therefore, there is no wrong way to answer it. every person can give an unique answer as long as it is work for them. because it is not about wrong and right or deep and shallow anymore. it is about finding what you want to take and what you want to give and it is a test of how much effort and risk you dare to lose to achieve a peace and balance in love. and the answer to that, my friend, you have to figure out for yourself.

oh, and don’t be so surprised if one day you found out that the simplest and shallowest answer is the one that work best for you. coz, life is a b***h and sometimes she’ll come and bite you in the a**.